Miracles

      I have to go pay bills today. I hate having to go pay bills. It's not so much that I hate having to pay bills, it's more like, I hate the fact that I have nothing left over after they are paid. There are times when it is down to the last penny.

      I believe I've mentioned before that I have five kids. My fiance has three, so together we have seven. It's a yours, mine and ours thing. It seems like everyday I'm hit with a new thing one of them needs or wants. I find it difficult at times because the word no is said a lot when it comes to things they want. I know I give them all the love they will ever need as a child. I don't feel like I'm always able to give them all the one on one time they want, but they know I at least try.

      When I look at the economy today and speak to my friends who are unable to get a job, or have to move because there isn't any work, I feel like it's a miracle I have one. Granted, it isn't a lot of money, but I'm thankful I have one. There is an area in Kentucky that has been flooded. People have lost their homes and they don't have power in some parts. I look around at my little house that barely holds four kids and two adults and am thankful I have it.

      There is something to be said about being able to pay the bills. I may not always like that John and I don't have a lot of money, but at least we have what we need. My fiance' John is a sub contractor for a company called Timber Siding. It's a miracle that he has work every week. Not because he is bad at it, actually he's great at his job. He loves what he does. I have seen him take something that looks old and dilapidated and make it into something beautiful. He's very proud of what he does. The miracle of all of this is that we make it. Even though, every month we have to empty the piggy bank to do it.